I am making myself sick. My surgery countdown is on...10 more sleeps. I am now becoming f@$king terrified. I've just spent the last hour reading about the surgery. Looking at pictures. I want to vomit. I laugh when people say "well this is your choice". Is it? My bite is screwed....my jaw and neck are always hurting. I just want to feel like a normal person again. I just wish that Orthodontics had been different when we were kids. Today there are so many options for kids to hopefully avoid surgery. All I know is I don't want Tyler to go through this.
I'm crying as I write this...just finished begging my husband to take a few more days off. I need him home to help me the first week. I'm not going to be able to do anything. My head is going to basically look like a big bruised watermelon. I won't be able to talk normally for a month because I'll have a splint attached to the roof of my mouth. Bruising, swelling, pain, numbness....I just want to cancel the damn surgery.