February 10, 2013

Reinventing Oneself

The last several years have moved slowly and other days seems they've been a blur.  My health has not been at it's peak and I've burrowed down into a little hole of self pity due to pain and exhaustion.  

Living through this daily is very frustrating.  Especially when those around you really do not understand because the pain and exhaustion are not visible.  You choose to have a more secluded life because it's easier than explaining it again and again.  There are good days where flair ups are not as debilitating.  But the bad days make it difficult to get out of bed.  Frustration can be further increased by a doctors lack of understanding, compassion, or ability to find you solutions that do not include a myriad of drugs. 
I am once again trying to turn a new leaf.  I've been speaking with a compound pharmacist who has been accessing my lack of energy and pain.  He has some great suggestions with supplements and has encouraged me to get back to exercise.  I really have been avoiding it due to pain.  I'm happy to say that I've completed 7 days straight of yoga and meditation.  It hasn't been easy by any means.  I've fallen over, cried a couple of times and swore far too much.  But I did it!  This video was a great inspiration to me.  Never, Ever Give Up. Arthur's Inspirational Transformation!  I watched it with tears streaming down my face and said I have to be the change.  I have to do all the things that I feel will work, but together.  

Did I also mention that I'm cleansing?  I've given up gluten, no red meat or pork, no sugar, and NO BOOZE.  Now some of it is for one month.  Others will hopefully be indefinitely.  I love bread way too much, but I really think it's killing me...slowly.


simonne said...

Good for you ...I am so proud of you for living graciously with the pain and fatigue you live with...

Lynn Wheeler said...

Thanks xo